Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Wow, some big changes...but not really for the better (sigh)

Well unfortunately I did not keep up my blog writing like I had planned. A few months have gone by and some things have changed. I will start off by saying, that Cole is back home....came home on his own pretty much. Is it back to the way I had wanted it to be, no...not by any means.  Do I think he is still pining away for his affair partner, Jolene? Yes...I do....and I had to prove that to myself even though I told myself I would not check up on him. Let's go back a little to the time before he came home. I asked him repeatedly, "if you come back home, you will have to stop the Jolene thing..that means no more calls, no more texts, no more emails, no more communication."  He told me he would, "IF" he made that decision to move back home...at the time we talked about this, he was still on the fence about what he wanted, her or me. We even sat at my work, alone and discussed the 'what if's' about if he came home as opposed to if he stayed with her...how would it be, how would it work etc. I knew back then, that trying to get as much information about how our relationship would have to go would be essential to me,.because I knew that if he did come home...he would clam up and never talk about us anymore..and I was right.

Let me say some things about Jolene that he has told me...apparently they were fighting..alot. Mostly over how he felt about me. One night she had asked him if he was planning on coming home and he didn't answer her right away and she just jumped all over him saying "why the hell would you even think about going back?"..and then when he said "did I say that I was going back?" it just escalated into a much bigger fight. He had told me that she drank 6 beers to his 1, was pretty drunk and once the fight got going (in a restaurant of all places) that he told the bartender to bring him 2 more Crowns...guess the honeymoon was over that night. They took the fight home where he accidentally called her by my name...guess that didn't go over to well with her.  At that time, he was stuck staying at her home. She had picked him up at the airport that weekend, and so he had no vehicle to drive (other than hers) and she was 30 miles from where I live with his children...so he said he just went to bed.   There was another weekend where he let me pick him up from the airport, which was kind of out of the blue (being as though Jolene thought she had rights to picking him up every weekend and his staying with her)...and on that weekend, we ended up going to dinner with the kids and then he had me drop him off at one of his buddies houses to spend the night over there...at that time, he still wasn't ready to come home.