Tuesday, May 10, 2011

I am stupid :(

So I have really been working hard to move on with my life. The problem is, is that when I do this it brings Cole around. He is mental. I have come to understand this. He keeps showing up in weird places as if he is stalking me. I was parked at a diner at 8:30 on a Sunday morning...having breakfast with my grandson..when all of a sudden Cole shows up and sits down with us.  2 hours later he was booking a flight with Jolene and himself. I suppose she flew with him to stay with him for the week while he worked out of town.

This past weekend he came to our house and stayed with our kids while I flew out of town to visit some friends. The night before he left we went to dinner with our children and then I left and went to my apartment. At 5:30 am in the morning he shows up at my apartment, knocking on the door. He is sick!!! Stupid me lets him in and you know what happens after that. So I ended up going out of town. He took me to the airport and kissed me goodbye in front of our kids. The manipulation continues and no one is to blame but myself. I had him pick me up from the airport and then we went to lunch together...then back to our house.  We ended up sleeping together again. Later on he flew out of town again...and I found out that he was going to book a flight to go see Jolene, but at the last minute he changed it.

I need to stop this and I need to stop it now...for my own sanity. He is cake eating in a big way. I am not going to reveal to him any longer about the things I know. It doesn't do me any good. If anything I will use the information as a means to keep myself away from him knowing that he is cake eating.